Madonas Disco

It seems ive found something recreational with no consequences. It seems that if i have nothing to do, money sitting in my bank and time to kill i tend to use mdma a fair bit.

The past four days i have been to a different night club each day and dropped a bomb of mdma each night. It seems we make the decision to go out the following night as the first is coming to an end as there are no apparent consequences of a heavy night of dancing.

Drinking alcohol for years you learn that there is only so much your body can take. You have a too heavy night and you feel like death the next day, wandering round unable to function properly and most of your time is spent trying to keep the contents of your stomach inside. After a night of mdma i feel nothing, i wake up feeling slightly tired, but i understand that is due to the excercize i am doing whilst high.

I have barely been able to drink two nights in a row and i certainly wouldnt manage four nights of drinking. Its interesting that i there are no appernt side effects from mdma as it brings you to a point to question the actual limits. The reason i have been able to drop mdma for the past four nights in a row is because i have access to it and the time to rest the next day. It would be the fith night in a row if i considered it for tonight. If i had it sitting on my desk right now i would probably be preparing for another night out.

This is where it comes to question if it has adictive qualities. ive looked into it and the most i can find is that people just talk of growing an intollerence to it and therefor needing more to get a high. If i think about why i would consider it if i had it is because i have a very good time on it. its undeniable but i have realised that its not a dead certainty that you will have a good time.

I considered the possiblity that i may come to rely, or depend on it for a good time. But i also consider the attitude towards alcohol and how i, and almost everyone i know relys on it to have a good time. There are many night clubs that i could not go to without getting drunk as i use it to gain a small piece of courage to get up and dance.

where is the point where one is good and one is bad, or well one is more accepted than the other?

I could drink for two weeks straigh, every night and not one person would say anything in regarding how wreckless it is. It would be overlooked as "student life" and shrugged off.

Is using mdma four nights in a row abuse? is drinking alchol four nights in a row abuse?

the answer should be the same for each, you cannot deem one abuse without the other. I did realise that i have sort of made a reputation for myself. Its taken me four days of spontanuious plans and substance abuse to be labeled, in four days!

its very enjoyable, much more than alcohol.